bday.

Auto response from REiGNMaN29:
REiGNMaN29: but deep down you love me for it
macNcheese227: deep down i want to kill 70 human beings because of you being in my life

heppy birthdoi amanda

macNcheese227: thank you for the birthday present known as
macNcheese227: sleep deprivation

Auto response from macNcheese227:
last night...
REiGNMaN29: whats your plan tomorrow? i say you wake up take three shots, go to your exam, take three more shots, go to your group project, take three more shots, go to class, take three more shots, write 1 page of your paper like the intro, take three more shots, puke on mike, then take three more shots, and then call me. the end.
macNcheese227: <3>
REiGNMaN29: have some swweeet birthday dreams

p.s. mitch has a disclaimer that i left out the vulgar part about puking on joselyns body parts.
omc.*


good weekend.
thursday: friends here
friday: far rockaway
saturday: far rockaway and visitor when i got home
sunday: nyc with the fam
good times good presents good birthday :)

one more chad thing..

lisa:
BlinkWorthy: were you there when he asked me if i was goth? i was like ummm im wearing an off-white shirt...do i look goth?
BlinkWorthy: and then when we were at the dinner he came in late and he was like "is there any cream cheese left?"
BlinkWorthy: and it was gone so i let him know
BlinkWorthy: and he was like "oh so i can have some of yours? ill scrape it off your bagel"
BlinkWorthy: and then he said something about taking my lox and i ignored him

then i tell all of this to jordan...
JN64Lover: ohhhhhhh chad
macNcheese227: seriously
JN64Lover: what a character
JN64Lover: note the pronounciation of the ch in character

(this is why its the joke that never ends.) REALLY goodbye now.

oh my CHAD.

lets start with... thursday.
10. all the friends over for birthdays... fun !
9. they were: jos, jen, val, aaron, mike, amy, sam, jordan, lisa, yana, justin, david, zane, amanda3, umm...
8. had a slumber party :)
7. shabbaton friday.. FAR ROCKAWAYYYYY
6. van ride up always rocks... with my boyzzzzzzz and a few homegirls
5. shabbaton was so much fun. stayed with safirs in the big fun house. bonded with awesome people. made up a new code word.. chad... is that what they teach us on shabbatons?
4. i bet YOU didnt play kings with a rabbi's wife on friday night..
3. aaron came over to seriously study for a little bit tonight. we really read on a saturday night is that weird
2. going to ny tomorrow with fam for the monday bday...
1. i feel so reJEWvinated from everything... (you had to be there.)

new code: chad
use: "oh my chad..." or "i am going to go chad now" or "thats so chad" or maybe even "hey can i see your chad?" or "chad is wearing his jacket and touching seva.."

i love you guys, you know who you are. blurp. bye


editing a few minutes later after discussing things with a fellow chader:
macNcheese227: i forgot to say the use "chad must have been snorting on the corner" (sniffle)
JN64Lover: put it on there

i love these boys.

http://www.intellectualwhores.com/ladderintro.html
that is funny. go to it.

i love jordan dascal and aaron lukaszewicz (pronounced loo-kaz-o-witz).

goodnight.
that is all.

I've come to my senses, that I've become senseless. I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships. Every last conviction, I smoked them all away. I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way...So I sit and wait and wonder,"Does anyone else feel like me?" Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems...ill sing along, yea with every emergency. just sing along, im the king of catastrophes. im so far gone, that deep down inside i think its fine by me, im my own worst enemy. -less than jake.

what the fuck is with today? jordan and i get in trouble in a LECTURE for me accidentally letting out a single syllable laugh.. like, a yelp. that bitch. then, i go to lunch with jordan and dz. my necklace is not on my neck and I realize this probably too long after ive lost it.. so now, im really mad. since it had my really really important jewish star on it that was my moms.

really just need to not be here right now. really need the weekend and god dammit its only monday. not myself. what is going on? help.

the result: this is bullshit. all of it, all of you, all of everything, including myself. the end.

got fun things!

got fun things at the mall.

mike got my first bday present of the year.

then came home, and mary gave me my second.

and there will be pictures coming...

"When things in your life become stagnant, you know you're no longer happy with what you're doing, well then you figure out whats important to you. Then, create your own penis showing game...metaphorically speaking that is..." - waiting...
Sk8er4yomama: dat quote means a lot to me
macNcheese227: do you have your own penis showing game lol
Sk8er4yomama: no
Sk8er4yomama: i need one

shabbat lunch always wins. especially when dz, walzter and bengross are there.
gavin degrawing now. goign to the mall later. hmph.

re-eval on the bday wishes.

i love le sport sacs and my mom found a huge one on sale today at bloomingdales. i love herrrrrr.
mike said "you're so difficult to find presents for. maybe ill just get you the RENT dvd". i said "hey, read my blog."
i posted a few weeks ago but im going to repost. for you, mike-L.

rent dvd hehahha
some other dvds...
hipsters, hamsters, and other pressing issues
some other books...
cookie cake. (i told mike that yesterday and in my dream i had cookie cake it was so cool)
anything beatles related?
cd mixes (esp. from u, mo)
things that smell like vanilla.
things that glitter.
i always melt over sentimental picture frames.
uhh go on facebook to see my inerests... i feel like a bitch writing this post.
but then again i buy kickass presents for other people. this year, im askin for somethin kickass.
(even though her moving out wasnt enough of a present)

^that is happening. right now. while i sit here.

johari

http://kevan.org/johari?name=a.ross


cool.

today was fun because
A. it was mary's birthday and it was fun
b. mike and i altered our state of consciousness for class since that is what we learned about today
C. i hung otu with beckers and aimer at red lion
d. i had lunch with moyanggggg
E. we are blasting great music (crazy for you- madonna)
f. and mike is lip singing
G. brian and mike got a kickass place (hopeuflly.. fingers crossed) for next year.
h. we took pics smelling nail polish remover and eating nesquik choc. syrup
I. new pics are posted on here
j. shabbat tomorrow
K. i made dave a cool post-it project it says his name... its out of melted wax from sparkle crayons
l. marie is moving out tomorrow
M. blasting floyd now yeaayy
n. bye

it rained today last year
and i only remember that because we walked to every place in new brunswick to find a game that came out for xbox.
and we never found it
but we found eachother
together on valentines day.

that was stupid.

SHA KA KAN

reading through mo yang's old xanga. found some interesting things. lyrics to so many songs that molded my junior and senior year of high school...

artifacts of old conversations between friends:
suko1985 (12:08:04 AM): be like, "sha ka kan"
suko1985 (12:08:10 AM): and she'll be like, "what?"
suko1985 (12:08:23 AM): and u';ll be like, "that's the cherry hill ghetto talk for ur'e a cold bitch"

i miss them

paper to write. soup to eat. olympics to watch. dreams to be slept. congestion to be rid of. bye.

right now i feel

something about the way you looked at me
made me think for a moment that maybe
we were meant to be. living our lives
separately. and its strange that things change
but not me wanting you
so
desparately.
-michelle branch


do you realize this?

why can i have you?

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, He said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever...and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said... You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die.

after we talk about things like this, i hate that i cant have you. because you kill me. in a lot of ways.

great week, weird ending. lets just start over and maybe get some snow in here. bye

88 on psych exam.
we are happy in hurr.

health center in an hour so f'in around in the student center on college ave.

maimonides tomorrow. sushi/challah making on wed night. shabbat at 52 mine st. on friday.

these weeks are flying.

happy 1 year anniversary of sadness.



why do i say stupid things like that?

my birthday is in 3 weeks

and i want a very specific dvd, tony & tina black glitter eye liner, a hoodie sweater like the one i got on channuka but it needed to be returned so it was like an un-present present, a new cell phone (hopefully that doesnt count as a birthday present.), the toothpaste book "hipsters, hamsters, and other pressing issues", and cookie cake.

for the chan i got a new winter jacket, boots, and the garden state dvd. i wanted all of them. but i asked for none of them. so now, im asking. oh. and i hope mom and dad can contribute a few bucks towards my 400 dollar israel excavation with my RU crew. thanks.

back to this paper.
peace and carrots.

"she cant read!"

watching america's next top model marathon with joselyn and valerie...

having triscuits and tea, admiring tyra banks scream at girls, etc..

im a little sick with this stomach virus that won't go away all week... going to the health center tomorrow probably, since they were bitchasses to me on the phone this morning (sunday).

shabbat rocked in passaic and im so glad I went with amy, heather, sam, preston, and all the new members who came, too!

ummmm more later when i dont feel like throwing up on val's computer.

i miss california sometimes.

alephjz: Hows your vagina?
macNcheese227: great
macNcheese227: i miss you!
alephjz: Me too
alephjz: i miss making fun of your vaginal problems
alephjz: and you
alephjz: all of you


yeah... maybe not that much. but i miss the weather, i guess. THANKS jonathan zoltan.