party

tonight was good because:
10. we celebrated chanukkah and shabbat in the ross house
9. my brother had morgan mike adam and jonathan over
8. i had sarah and ian over
7. the food was SO good
6. ian and i hit up philly and went to the sonic vision show
5. my brother snapped out of his butthole asscrack mood
4. i dont have to work tomorrow
3. i dont have to work sunday
2. "jon katz is in town. lets go to the bank." "why?" "i have bills to pay so i need to deposit money in to my account?"
1. 8 crazy more nights. THEN CALI!

synogogue

Tethticon: i feel like if u walked into the shul u would know everybody
Tethticon: and everyone would be holy shit thats the girl that gives us bagels

id like to thank daniel goldwasser for that tidbit of information about my imfamy in the orthodox community of the west side of cherry hill.
so stupid but so true.

ugh

today sucked.
everybody pissed me off
my mom is cooking with indian spices or something i want to vomit 5 times
i want to go somewhere to get out of my house
but a)nobody picks up their phones
b)theres nowhere to go

maybe barnes and noble
whatever
bye.
why do i write on this thing?
i miss jos and val.
the end.

ugh

today sucked.
everybody pissed me off
my mom is cooking with indian spices or something i want to vomit 5 times
i want to go somewhere to get out of my house
but a)nobody picks up their phones
b)theres nowhere to go

maybe barnes and noble
whatever
bye.
why do i write on this thing?
i miss jos and val.
the end.

jewish

its been a while. hi.
monday went to my second cousins wedding in brooklyn and it was a lot of funnnn.
and then tonight i went to a chan. party at the library and these people were also there:
aimer, mike-L, scott, samansky, rabbi and estie goldberg (And cool kids), sam waltzer, dave, eli, ben gross, and mattea!!
it was so nice to see everybody and then go to sam's after w/ the maimonides cherry hill boys and rabbi goldberg to watch the insight bowl
go rutgers.
working tomorrow and thurs and fri, then secret homie is coming on saturday (i hope) and then a lot of plans up in the air for new years eve ;) (alamars, eli's, philly...)
putting new pics up on webshots, check regularly if you are bored !

less than 2 weeks. shit shit shit who the fuck is shooooting us?

playing favorites.

sp-ms-dw-gr-pe-rb:
this is the least that i can do. you know im bad at calling you. the best way i can extend the lonely words i miss you. ill say it but im sure you knew. you're what i look most forward to. coming back to where ive been, ill just leave it at this: im sure you always feel my eyes on you but i hope that you never feel unwanted. if you feel unwanted wait for me to move out west, its ok if you dont. i hope you know you're my favorite thing about the west coast. i wish i stayed. i hope you wait. so i here i am. counting down the days till california comes. -tsl

as much as mybrother hates the starting line because they define the world of tiny bopper punk screaming girls at sweaty concerts.... i cant bring myself to deny that i live for those lyrics. and besides, doug said we're all getting laid in california.. what is the deal with that? ask me about it in a few weeks ;)

they're in california
i am here
they are drinking saki.
i am selling bagels.
they call and say they miss me

but no matter what, i miss them more
not soon enough. 16 days.

oh man.

let down

let myself down this evening... dinner took my mind off it (and i was like "ahhhhhhh X")
but at least i have
10. work tomorrow and friday and xmas
9. nemo tomorrow night
8. cali in a few weeks
7. friday night with secret homie
6. my sweet speakers to listen to music on my laptop
5. fun rabbi things on tuesday night at the library with M people
4. a spring semester of fun and interesting classes (for once)
3. the treadmill (uhhh i should be on that instead of this)
2. joselyn -- live saver bringing home my shit i forgot
1. an A on my final eng. paper

awww mannnn

"first we'll make snow angels for 2 hours, then go ice skating, then we'll eat a whole roll of toll house cookiedough as fast as we can, and then we'll snuggle, then i thought maybe we could make ginger bread houses, eat more cookie dough, and then go ice skating again, and maybe even hold hands" -ELF

• work @ bagel spot is going well.
• my car is running smoothly.
• i make a lot of green lights and wonder if i just have good timing when i drive.
• mike-L and aimer really liked the presents i got them and that made me smile.
• chai days till california (if you know what that means, you're cool..eat a cookie.)
• hebrew final is tomorrow ahhhhhhhhhhh
• passed geology exam, thank jesus.
• not really thank jesus though. i miss my rabbis and tuesday night maimonides and wednesday night sushi and all those things that are jewish.
• barnes&nobs w/ howie in the a.m. so he can meet with his bosses but i swear they're lesbos. and they use AIM and he's furious.
• picture on the right... compliments of www.explodingdog.com

and some huge meteor is like "well fuck that."

p.s. im listening to coldplay and i feel very nicholas118ish.

a good day.

today was good.

yay.
bye.

boots and common

top ten list of friday/saturday
10. math test was so hard
9. i had the time of my life studying, though.
8. and then ian gave val andme a ride back to cook and we listened to Common with
his rediculous speakers in his rediculously blue VW pimped out beetle.
7. so i came home and downloaded Be, the CD we listened to in ians car.
6. and now im home in cherry hill.
5. and i got a new winter jacket/boots.
4. which i needed really needed.. and LLBean had so much fun stuff.
3. now im the phone with seth. hold on.
2. ok, im off the phone- i get to see seth later!
1. i have to study hebrew though, and also work monday/tuesday 1-6.

have a good weekend! shavuah tov.

(this is the color of my new jacket, kind of.

speechless

i dont even have the words to tell you that i care so much about you and you've really shown me that people like yourself really do exist, which i often doubt myself about, because even i am not that worthy.
i dont even have the words to tell you that i hope everything works out... actually, that i know they will work out.
i dont even have the words to tell you that you've made an impact in my life and i hope i did the same for you.
i dont even have the words to tell you that sometimes you've gotta go with your gut and tell the truth, and i feel honored you told me what you did.
i guess these are the words i've gotta tell you, though. you truly are a friend and maybe other people are going to suffer when you've gotta take your leave, but i'm not gonna be one of those people. i refuse to be part of that crowd that forgets who you are.

So don't let the world bring you down. not everyone here is that fucked up and cold. remember why you came and while you're alive. experience the warmth before you grow old. [incubus]

math?

math haiku.

ian eats some rice
we need to study some math
we both hate this class.


thanks bye.

just want boots

i just wanted some fucking boots and every pair was either a size up or a size down. and honestly, i need some goddamn boots for the snow. because it might. snow. tomorrow.

REiGNMaN29: thats true but dont be blue i knock down walls and drop bombs for you. Like a well cooked stew my lyrics mix together in ways that control the weather. whether its cold or hot whether your bold or not you can stop the way my words flow on the spot.

less than a month. for real.

clarification

just for clarification
mike and i were sober when we posted that message.
for a change.

you can never be "too" jewish

"lets rob that case of caffiene pills downstairs (we argue over how to spell the real name)
mike has to keep quieting amanda because shes loud as shit
amanda we should stay up all night and right before we have class
we should
s m o k e.
oh wait you have you to give a presentation
thats not going to work.
what are you saying? can you stop? i need like a break and i have to like pee again soon.
5 to 23 your mom has a big dildo she uses it to fuck you up the ass when you were a child
shhh go to sleep and pee in our beds
SHUT UP
do you want some Arizona Iced TEA NOOOOOOOOO im surprised you dont have to pee after drinking that whole thing
we need some heat up in here its fucking like cold
dont you smell soup
why is everybody eating
and nobody is offering
can you stop writing everything that is going on?
yes.
do your work.


love
amanda and mike
2:32 am, cook campus center

top 6 heros of all time

less than a month till sheila doug mitch greg rhett and phil
and this is why im psyched
1. shes my favorite
2. he calls me to check on me at the latest hours of the night
3. he's like my big bro
4. he'll always be the first who meant anything
5. because of transitive property, if i did him, i did hugh grant.
6. hes the goofiest guy in town

they are my heros. i havent seen them all in 2 years (except #5). 3000 miles isnt so bad when you've got a non-stop flight

departure: philadelphia international.
destination: los angeles international.
duration: 1 week

hollllerrrrrrrrrr

i pray

“[U]ntil the day when God will deign to reveal the future to man, all human wisdom is contained in these two words,—‘Wait and hope.’” - The Count of Monte Cristo

you know who you are. and i am praying for you. (in a that jewish kind of way i know you love so much)

p.s. today was better. 11:17 and i've done--->no work thus far. and i am--->going to start now. bye.

list of the day: random thoughts.

1. i got all of my work done last night and ended up getting 6 beautiful hours of sleep
2. sushi was so delicious and it really helped me take my mind off of dropping out of school
3. its mikes birthday and that is fun
4. somebody is stealing my brothers identity http://theresultsofexperience.blogspot.com/
5. im really excited because im getting a siddur with my name inscribed in it on sunday from M.
6. california is a month away, depending on how you count. or 4 weeks from sunday.
7. i feel great because i went to the gym recently a few times and i really think its showing
8. i won an air freshener for taking a RU Healthy quiz/game at Brower
9. i hope i dont fail college. i mean this.
10. now im going to have fun making each of these lines a different color.

the end.

for serious this time.

i hate school. i am completely not where i wanted to be by this point in my college career, and that probably dates back to RU losing my transcripts and eventually just placing me on cook instead of douglass, where i really wanted to go and wanted to strive to be a "woman leader on campus" blah blah blah. i dont think im cut out for this. i dont excell as much as i want to for the amount of work that i think i do, and i got stuck with two shitty teachers this semester that might really royally rip me a new asshole. i just want to get out of here and do things with my life that feel more meaningful than wasting $18,000 that i dont have. but at least i have this...

(edited) conversation via text message that saved my life: (late tuesday night...wednesday morning)
me: it would really help if you'd call or text me when you have time, i could really use a smile right now. you know you always make my day
mitchell: I'm currently getting raped by my paper. Getting raped is not as fun as I thought it would be!
me: hope your paper turns out well. i am going to get a UCSB hoodie when i visit. guess what?
mitchell: thats because we own you! you are going to have passionate make up sex with (unnamed)?
amanda: no. and since you're obnoxious, im not telling you.
mitchell: tell me you cunt sucking whore
me: I just wanted to tell you that you are my hero and that I cant wait to see you and i'm really stressed and it makes me happy im talking to you.
mitchell: thats all great and everything but you made me guess something so you better not leave me with this bullshit anti-climax.
me: you made it a climax for yourself, i just said guess what. ill tell you something though, i hooked up with joselyn.
mitchell: thats old news. jk. what did you guys do?
me: im just kidding, we didnt. can u send me a nice good night text so i can go to sleep?
mitchell: the greatest gift in life is life itself. everybody dies but not everybody really lives. so live it up to the fullest and dont let the petty get in the way of the prize. -1:59am

cali

january 8-15

im psyched no digity down to the bone dawg


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i can see your boo bee's

top ten reasons why i am happier than ever

10. i saw fiddler on the roof today in manhatten w/ mommy and esther (+macy's herald sq.)
9. it SNOWED ----->favorite natural disaster
8. i finished my most recent handmade scarf (frasc for all you people who read backwards.)
7. amy mike and i got free coffee last night at the ccc
6. its beginning to look a lot like christmas
5. i rock at rummy 500 (maybe not egyptian rat screw but that is because i was drugged ok mike)
4. i was superjewish in yardly, PA with my maimonides homies this weekend and never felt better to be jewish
3. im having a swiss piss party with mike tonight after we do work
2. this semester is really close to being finished
1. i got a new sweater as early chanukah present and it looks like the one i almost stole from amy so that is good i will give her her's back.


on request, i would like to tell everybody that esther lewis (name located in #10) is an inspiration wealth of knoweldge and spirit. she is the wife of Rabbi Lewis who works for my program at hillel. She is a hardworking mommy of 2 beautiful girls and is really is passionate about everything she says. Spending time with her and hearing her explain parallels between the world and the torah, I am more inspired by her than anything ever before. She is a graduate of highlevel academia who displays the qualities of a true leader and socially skilled worker. Please join us for free sushi at rutgers hillel on wednesday nights at 8pm to hear her talk !